i am ur i|Lusion..

2007-12-09T10:48:00.000+08:00

THE EXAMS ARE OVER! EMUFY IS OVER! U ARE FREE TO GO! HAVE A NICE HOLIDAY!
that's wat ms fontanella said when she collected the last paper..those are the words tat i am lookin forward to hear all year round..but now it seems alittle sad..gonna miss all the gossiping sessions,language sessions ,jus hangin ardoung the lockers watching the guys do silly things,trying to guess terence's chinese/canto/english.hahas..i'm so gonna miss tat all..
the next mufy intake is bout 400 big..dammit..wat are the chances of emufy staying together? sighhh..EMUFY '07
anyways..i'm sick now..i sound lke a toad..i swear..n jye,douglas n tingting just cant stop laughin at my sexy voice..i hope i recover before i get back..
jye should be in the airport by now..she's so lucky..going back today..next is douglas,yuni eric,shawn,lulu den me on the 17..sighhhhh..not looking forward to the new MUFY intake..
aiight..ima go rest..

][ loves! ][

2007-11-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

hey all well..today's officially the last day of EMUFY..sad to say tat we have to part..i really like the class though..those holy jokers..terence,febby,shawn,wilson,kawah..they are the best..not to forget my mates ting ting,jye,yuni,douglas,lulu,hassan,eric and the rest of the class..kinda sad today..though i was glas it's over..but..yes..there's always a but..just when bonds get stronger..we have to part..sigh..i swear tat those bunch of ppl.. will make u like them..gonna miss siting by the locker watching them torture each other without mercy carrying the innocent ones around the lockers..dead funny..silly talks n serious talks.. ms fontanella and her love story rules.. yeah..this is a good class..
though we dont exactly speak a common language..but guess when we each talked..the other understood..
those famous phrases : EMUFY when i'm talking u dont talk
KACTUS!
but i just move my desk
there is still too much talking
the girls at the back are not WRITING
ok alright
to adjust for something,to depreciate for something
i'm not in the mood
nonono..that is not a good enuff reason
ehhh..excuse me....

damn..see..told u tat tis is a good class..they even memorized who's on the roll..sigh..exams are like less den a week away..say bout 3 days away..i've exhausted my brain power..i am tooo too tired..everyday studyin the library..damn...aiight..ima like go sleep..i'm too tired..
loves..

][ 天才與白痴 ][

2007-11-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

well well well and i am back again.. i will be home in bout 29 more days.. i am sure looking forward to tat..study study study..exams are coming in about a week n the bloody internet is pissin me off big time.. i've gt NO internet connections.. using cheng's com now..
viewed the election today..kinda sad tat the labor won but guessi it's time for a change since the liberral party has been in parliament for 11 and a half years.. pity tat john howard was the one tat brought aust to boom time where australia is at full capacity now n unemployment is at it's lowest in 30 yr history..there goes the australian economy says my aunt..as long as liberals are in parliment..u will get profit n revenue but as long as labor is in..it's only expenses expenses n more expenses..but ppl are happy to vote for labor as they look after human rights n human welfare.l.but liberals are more for the economy..

hmm..i miss u all loads n yeah i miss ya baby..muack! love ya ppl

][ stand by me ][

2007-11-10T19:27:00.001+08:00

this is my best weekend so far out of the many weekend i had.well..i mean saturday tat is.. a whole day out with my mates..met the girls at 11.45 to take a train to sandown park station..bloody long journey..almost died in the train..took almost an hour..so after we got down..THE DADDY OF THE DAY, DOUGLAS, gave us a call..we told him we are already here so he told us to come out of the station n wait for him..
we all ended up cam whoring at the train station..for bout 20 mins till douglas drove past n realized we were tat bunch of silly ppl doing silly things at the train station..pretty good cook for a 22 year old korean guy who looks like he is only 18..slacked ard his house for bout 2 hours.. den headed to view the monash clayton campus..pretty big yall..daddy drove us all to chadstone..biggest shoppin mall in melbourne..how brave of him to bring 4 girls to the shoppin mall n to shop n gossip with us..hahas..so fun.. den headed to brighton beach..we were almost like dyin int he car..super hot today..sun was blazin'..ended up windin down the windows n blastin the music with mega bass..
brighton beach.. pretty sight..nice sand..cool water good weather..we were running ard the beach barefooted..feet hurt like hell cuz there were many little stones n shells on the sandbed..it was like 6 when we went to the beach..n can u imagine the sun blazin' like it was only 3..hot sun with cold chilling winds.. how fun is tat?
after tat, daddy drove us to the city for dinner..we treated him to a japanese dinner where i irritated jye the entire time.. den we headed home.. daddy sent us all the way home.. cheers to douglas being such a gentleman..
we plan to go to geelong for a day or two when we get back from the holidays.. the weekend before sch starts..cant wait for tat.. weee~~
aiight cheers all.. ima go wash up n go to bed..dead tired..

][ ur one and only ][

2007-11-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

hi all.. it has been dead long ago since i last posted..very very long ago.
well, thing's are still aiight down under..crazy weather as usual..i really miss the peeps back home.. mich,waiteng,drey,brina all of em..miss em workmates too..
i'll be back home soon..say maybe bout another 1 an a half mth..so ya..keep counting down ok..

muack! love ya ppl!!

][ PAPER FACES ON PARADE ][

2007-07-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

BACK!

sigh..i'll be leavin in another...say.... 33 more days? ya yesterday night was a nighr i didnt as n wish for..i cried till i had a headache..nv was i so heart broken throughout these 11 months..nv..well..i dunnoo..i was on the verge of letting go..

went to eat pizza hut with LIME, ain, hyder..ya..so fun..gonna miss em all..tuesday's gonna be my last day in taka..after like 8 mths of working there..i'm sooo gonna miss jo,ain,linda,nis,botak,hyder,azman,azam darling,suffian,step,sb..omg..so many of em..sigh..

][ count ur blessings before u lose them ][

2007-06-03T00:43:00.000+08:00

I FOUND MY SHOES!!!!! SO HAPPY!! nis lost her pants cuz farah took it back to iron..i was like..WHATTT?!! ya.. den afer work..walked with hyder n chinaman..hahas.. den went to wisma with ain n azmen..to joelle's boutique..so fun ok! tried clothes n shoes n skirts..hahasx..weeee..den went to mac at scotts..ya..shaker friesssss hehes..now i'm home waiting for my sweet love to call..wonder how's he doing.. oh i miss him sooo much! oh MR FOO CAME..he ask me dun go aust continue working..i was..like.huh..hahas..no..den saw mr tan n mrs tan..hahas..so cute sia all of them

][ i noe tat he loves me cuz he told me so ][

2007-06-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

OMG!! extended hours for every week end till the end of this month..OMG!! kill meee..n guess wat..i did something so retarded today..i left my smelly working shoes at the checkpoint...ARGH!!! kill meee.. AGAIN! wat if they throw my shoes away..den wat am i gonna wear?!!!!! ARGHHHHH!!! stupiidddddddddd...SHIIIITT!!! ARGHHH!!!
ok ima sleep now..nights love..nights all..
i hope i find my shoes..sob sob..

2007-05-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

ya all...i did something real dumb yesterday..i fell of the stairs and sprained my anle..tell me how great's tat..when i got up..i couldnt stop laughing..den my n linda continued our arduos journey to 6th floor of lucky plaza to eat.ya..hahas..dunm..was talking to her den i missed a step n told myself like DAMN i'm gonna fall..ya..the next thing u noe..i'm on the ground n linda's still talking..when she turned around..she looked at me with a face tat clearly states : WADDA HELL ARE U DOING ON THE FLOOR?!

ya..it was dumb..n today..cant go to work cuz i promised dearest tat i wont n i cant walk....ya..damn..full shift..thank god..hehes.. alryts..ima limp back to my room n peace out..nice weather to snooze..loves!

][ tat frightful smile ][

2007-05-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..yeah i've been working..anyways..ppl..i think it's sorta confirmed tat i'll be flying on the 5th night of august.AUDREY.. i'll still be able to celebrate ur bdae..i hope.. well..peeps.. i'll be leaving before my bdae..so u all noe wat to do ryts.. hehes..i'm sad..hais..

][ baby..please dun leave me ][

2007-05-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

like DAMN!! high fever 39.1.. since yesterday at work.. my mates were so nice to me..looking after me.. david n aunty grace.. vitagen n mentoes.. n i'm stuck at home today..hope my babe brings me out on sat..i wan go shopping!! but only if i get better.. alryts..ima go rest now..

][ where's my baby? ][

2007-04-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

like DAMN!!! i think i'm like..soooooo hyper at work though i'm like really really superly tired..yeah..so like DAMN! hahas..ok thats all..I MISS YA DEAREST!

][ i hearts u ][

2007-04-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

oh mannnnn..been doing full shift since like..oh man.. 10 days straight..so tiring..and it's still going on..oh someone kill me..
reserved a guess shoe i like so muchhh..oh i'm so happy but perhaps due to the long hours of work..i'm can be in quite a foul mood at times.. so u better not piss me off..

][ sweets for my sweet ][

2007-04-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

alryts ppl...back from another day of full shift..and it's yet anohter full shift tmr..like..dopes..sians ah..everyone is starting sch..show u some pictures..

A LIFE OF A TAKA PROMOTER,A GIRLFRIEND,FRIEND AND A PARADOX MODEL:

yeah anyways..while the pics are being uploaded..

friends and my dearest,my love..my precious:

i've just gotten the confirmation letter from taylors college over in australia melbourne.

Dear Ms FOO,
We are pleased to offer you a place in the Monash University Foundation Year( MUFY ).
Please report to level 1 at 9.30 am on the commencement date of your course for registration and orientation.
Thank yu for ur co-operation and we look forward to welcoming you to Australia.

Yours sincerely,
Iris Sze
International Admission Manager

when i got the letter..i cried..i dun wanna leave u guys..i dun wanna leave u babe..i was praying so god damn hard not to get a place there so i could study in s'pore..not afraid to tell u tat i'm still tearing..

babe..will u please wait for me..till i finish studying.. i'll come back every few months.

i didnt intend to type this 'bedtime story' but i figured u've gotta noe sooner or later..if it's ever later..den i' afriad tat i've got nt enuff time to spend with u..i wanted to call u to tell u..but..i cant..cuz den u'd noe i'm crying.. please forgive me if u're mad tat i didnt call u to tell u..but i jus cant..cuz i will cry..

GOOD NIGHT LOVE. I LOVE U.

2007-04-09T21:17:00.000+08:00

okae..back..well..things were as usual in australia..my aunt dropped crab on me okae..yeah..flight back was boring..but the food wAS good..boo! working tmr..sians..the last day there was hectic..rushing every where to get things..carrying 2 cartons of fruits ard..fuckin heavy.. here are some pics..

][ love ][

AUSTRALIA

2007-04-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

okae peeps...i'm blogging from australia..MELBOURNE..the plane ride here was a killer..i flew at 9.30..flight was delayed a little..yeah..each time i was a bout to doze off..tat little girl will cry n cry n cry..omg..so freaking annoying..ther;s a time difference..in melbourne, we're 2 hrs ahead of singapore which makes it 12 plus here already..yeah..weather here's a blast! freaking cold..though it's only autumn i didnt bring enuff clothes okae..so its not fun..didnt go anywhere much..
been taking the trams ard..went to queen victoria market..got myslef a portrait drawn by a china man..hahas..but preettyyy good i wud say..yeah..den it started to rain..like wtf..darn cold..n i was wearing this miserable piece of mango top.brrrrrrr..wen to the beach today..wearing just a razor back..dang it was great! the sun the wind..in one combined..enojyable..food her's a pretty large portion..u can hardly finish it..honestly..

BABE..i'm really sorry i couldnt spend out anniversary together..nt cuz of work..but cuz if holiday..n we're soooooo far away.. i miss ya loads dearest..wish u were here with me..wouldnt it be nice? i hope to see u soon babe! muack! love u

][ i speak the truth;nth but the truth ][

2007-03-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

FULL SHIFT today!thought i could see u..was so lookin forward to see u after wat u told me last night..

me: i miss u babe..
him:go sleep lah.
me: don't wan..i miss u..wanna see u now
him: tmr lah
me:but tmr i full shift need to work 12 hrs den can see u..*whines
him: the most i meet u during ur break ok..
me: but huh..i break 1 1/2 hr only den u come all the way to town jus to pei me
him: nvm lah.go sleep lah ok.guai lah.

but..the stupid rain..killed it all..yes the rain..oh man..so saddening..the whole day was alryts.samantha was being a total bum today..so sneaky n sudden..scaring everyone. she fuckin scared me ok.

fuck.

ya..anyways..didnt get to see him at all today..initially tot he was coming to taka to pick me up like wat he said..but no..nvm..shant lament bout it..i'm cool was inda tired anyways..little gastric n back ache

my two precious-s decided to be such wonderfully stubborn friends n send me home after lookin at my face..oh man..i love them both..JASON N WAITENG..thanks alot!

Do you want me to hide the feelings n look the other way n I don't know how to be fine when I'm not cuz i don't know how to make a feeling stop

i feel tiny.. tinyer den tiny..

][ where do i stand ][

2007-03-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

work sucked today..no sale..cuz either no size or the person's half sized..sickening..hmm..anyways..haven really been feeling well lately..headache..leg pain..back pain..du lan ah..stand already..den ok..but stand too long..fuck sia..all thee of them come together..new comer cocked up today..make me gobble down my ice cream n run up..

][ kill me slowly ][

2007-03-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

hey ya'll..back to blog since i'm a little free now..

YESTERDAY-
satayed till the wee hours of the night in taka..cuz comfort shoes shifting..as well as the storeroom..ok..it was so not fun..cuz like how many hundered boxes and i was shifting them alone..nt even mr john yati or cindy came to help..but thanks to my grp of jokers..mabel,jia ping,jason,choog hwee,johnson,edwin,jun xian or watever his name was and jj..yeap..thanks to all em ppl..i managed to move my stock..so thankful for them..yeah..anyways..mabel n jia ping waited for me..den we headed different directions..so yeah..

TODAY-
hmm..really tired,body's aching n i'm coming up with a flu..yeah so the situation aint too good..met dear audrey to look for my blazer we went mango..ya..den i bought a pants which was 49 bucks..den i saw another pants which was 49 but of better quality..much better..den i told audrey..i'm so blind..so stupid..yeah..den i finally gt my blazer at forever 21...68 bucks. ya..there was a blackout there today..den went to look for waiteng for lunch..we had pepperluch..oh..i love them both to bits.the new area isnt really fun..so sleepy standin there..my ai ai doing nonsense all the way.. it was so sians n so bored in taka..i nearly died..now i'm back home..moodless..moody..lazy..yeah..i miss my dearest..maybe tats y..I MISS YA BABE.. WHERE ARE U?

2007-03-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

lemme show u some pics of me n waiteng..after such a long time..finally..we had a chance to go out together..to esplanade! oh some of em pics are form the ever unpleasent drill camp..

WAITENG! thanx for spending time with me..enjoyed every moment of it.

2007-03-11T14:51:00.000+08:00

back ya'll. honestly tat fuckin jammer's bein a bitch.. she blames everyone for the mistakes n misunderstandings she caused between the other jos n our current batch of jos..but nth beats the company of my batch of girls..kick us out of camp we'll leave as a batch..dont provide us with meals..we'll get our own meals as a batch..really wonder if u really need our help to run the company or u jus need us to do the dirty work.. it's fine if u had a reason for us to leave..but jus based on ur stupid carelessness..u've cocked up..we sat there doin nth cuz we had no instructions..everyone was basically doin em things..got black faces from some of em..u think we dun feel a shit..u think we we aint feeling nth..well ur wrong bitch..u'll start losin us all..fancy pushin the blame ard..guess u've got ur eyes on ur butt..u dun even give a tot bout wat u wanna say or have said..those pics..they're all my girls..with love!

2007-03-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling down today..sigh..i miss my babe..babe i miss u..

][ my sugar pot ][

2007-02-27T00:24:00.000+08:00

was too bored..so ya..bleah

2007-02-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

HELOOO!! its been long since i last blogged..dont ask me bout my results..i cocked up..but well,its already over..
aniwaes..back to the pleasent things..well..been workin hard lately..chinese new year..hmm..well..didnt really go visiting..went to his grandma's place n ya..had a lot of fun..den went to his aunty helen's place..ya..tat was fun..really really fun..
IT'S MY BABE'S BDAY TODAY!! n i've gotta spend it with him..from 12 to 10.30..isnt tat great..
went over there den ya..lazed ard..actually wanted to go watch twins mission but..it rained so heavily when we wanted to leave..so wadda crap, we cancelled the bookin for a cab n stayed indoors..rain was so heavy the winds were so strong tat we could hear it howling even though the windows were closed.. we went into the room..wantin to order mac..but guess wat..after giving the address n everything they told us tat due to an over order, the nearest mac isnt accepting any more orders call bacck half an hour later..like wadda hell..so next we tried KFC..yupp..tat wasnt too bad..we ordered the treasures feast..n asked if i could change the tat coleslaw n the whipped potato into something else..she told me i can chnge the coleslaw into a whipped potato n a whipped potato into a coleslaw..ok like thanks..tat was totally stupid..made me stun there for awhile..
anyways..while waiting for the delivery,i sat in the kitchen eatin chinese new year goodies n watching my babe cut fruits..watching him from the back..even though he was jus cutting fruits..jus really made me really happy.at least there's a special someone willing to cut fruits for me..we sat at the dinning table eating em fruits talkin bout things..throwin sarcastic remarks at each other..was really fun though tats wat we always do..
after eating KFC..talk some more cock..den we went into the room for some exercise..hahas..ok its nt wat u think..he wouldnt let me sit wouldnt let me lie down..so basically we were jus goofin around wrestling,growlin, laughing..it was great fun..after bout half n hour..shagged worn out..den we crawled into bed n fell asleep..feels so good to fall asleep in his arms..we pigged out for bout 2 hours odd..even needin his sis to come wake the both of us up to go for dinner..can u imagine? i was so reluctant to get out of bed..felt so comfy there..dinner was great..darn filling..den ice cream cake..so filling i tell u..
THANKS FOR TODAY DEAREST..really enjoyed it..MUACK! love ya

][ u took my troubles away with just a smile ][

2007-02-09T02:03:00.000+08:00

like DANG! this is bad..i cant seem to be fallin aslp..in say..afew hours time..ima be collectin my results for the Os.like wadda crap..seems like jus 1 week ago when we took our paper..havin the CPE to yell at us before every paper begins..time flies..3 mths..doesnt even seem like it..soon all of us will go our seperate ways..saying our HIs and BYEs..guess the secondary sch journey ends when the results are in our hands..
anyone out there who cant seem to fall aslp as well?been feelin stone for the whole darn day..jason made it worst..he's jus so moodless n blur..tat i cant help feelin anxious..went for LONG JOHN today with mabel n sheena..hahas...they are soooo cute..fuckin caught byt he big fat manager cuz we were eatin sweets..but honestly..look at my face..do i seem like i even care?! well..no i dun care..so..yeah..
well peeps..best of luck to u guys..ima be goin back to my room..

][ i pray with all my might ][

2007-02-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

time sure flew by today..went to eat with jason,ch,n wat..ah mok ah..ya..sigh..things arent lookin too good..the branded sales brought us close..but seems like internal conflict n misunderstandings will soon take over..but i'll be praying.. Waiteng..fear nt ya..i'll be there..had many laughters with waiteng today..even a customer said tat we cant seem to get over wat we were laughing at..n he laughed at us..WAITENG I'M WAITING FOR THE PIC TO BE UPLOADED..hehes..dang! i love her to bits..
babe came to pic me up today..i'm feelin guilty..cuz i made his headache worse..i'm sorry dearest..muack! love u!

][ sing once again with me. our strange duet ][

2007-02-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

peeps..i'm back..well..results are gonna be out soon..like in a few days time..darn moe..they dont event hink bout us..fancy releasing the results so soon..before new year..spoil the atmosphere..sighs..all of taka will be down to seniors..all with no life..cuz all my homeys are gonna collect em results..yeah..good luck to all..had the whole day with my babe today..fun..miss spendin time with him..all those jokes..n times tat he made me feel stupid..ok..inside joke..

][ in sleep he sang to me ][

2007-02-05T14:43:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!! 2 days off..after many many many days of full shift..super woman's been piggin out today..hahas..sad tat i didnt manage to take off yesterday..cuz susan's off..like..darnit..
oh man..miss stayin at home..jus lazin ard doin nth..yeah..too bad my babe's nt beside me..i miss him loads..alryts..ima continue piggin out..love ppl! LOVE!

][ i killed u with just one glance ][

2007-01-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

oh man..can u believe it..i was like late for work today..ok let me tell u wat happened..i woke up at the time i was supposed to wake up. but knowin tat i'm such a pig..i offed the alarm n continue slpin till 9.40..i den chionged to taka..when i reached there everyone was basically slackin n jus doin nth..i was told tat loads of ppl were late..nine west didnt sell a single pair of shoe for tat whole hour.. the whole of the branded sales promoters were jus groupin n makin each other feel stupid with IQ questions..n some totally nt logical questionseven the cashiers couldnt be bothered to shoo us back to our counters..yeah.. yeah..den went back to sch for drill..ok hilarious..we were makin a whole load of noise..jus recallin it..n hong sheng called me a lion..ok wadda hell..wind blow den my hair messy can..anyhow lor..ok den dearest came to pick me up..send me home..n kissed me goodbye..oh i love him..muack!! oh jason bought kinder surprise for waiteng..but i forgot to give it to her..sorry girlie..think its still under the table..hehes..

][ BOOM! here to rock ya ][

2007-01-27T23:34:00.000+08:00

oh i'm back aft a long long long long week..taka card holders special sale's gonna end tmr..like oh yeah! aniwaes..went to metro paragon to work yesterday..it was a killer 130 to 6 at taka den 6 to 12 att paragon..den today 130 to 10..tmr n monday..full shift..how great is tat..i'm outa black clothes again..shit..
the atmosphere over at paragon's like crap..so..so different frm taka n the manager asked me to put on makeup..ok like wadda hell..the taka managers dont do tat..aniwaes..yeah bump into jeffrey n his mate..talked awhile..den my girlies came! oh so thankful..they made an hour pass by so quickly..LOVE U ALL SOOO MUCH BABES..den dearest sent me home..isnt he jus the best..well..yes..
today..hectic i would say..we manage to hit the 1.8 record..yeah today's sales..great..but i'm dead tired..seriously..many things happened today..like the stupid fire alarm tat caused a false panic twice..almost the whole of taka went quiet after the alarm..n a customer was like holdin on to my shoes so tightly..she almost went out of the building..they turned off the air con..the lifts were stopped..elevators were jam packed with shoppers..i tell u..it was mad..customers came n went..n came back again..well..n this thai transexual asked me.. 'ESCUE MEEZ,WHERES CAN IZ FIND ZEE LOII VIDON BO-TI-QUE' hell tat was funny..i wan the jlo or jessica simpson shoe..so nice..oh ya..becus of the fire alarm..taka's big big boss big boss bobbi samantha all came down to our level..scary shit ok..alryts peep ima shower n pigg out soon..i love ya all..i love ya sexy!

][ i need u like mercy frm heaven's gate ][

2007-01-20T12:12:00.000+08:00

i woke up with a feelin as though i was being slapped in the face..
aniwaes..ima be goin to work soon..peace ppl..

][ i was thinkin.. ][

2007-01-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

ok i'm back to blog..workin everyday but..not today..muahahas..dead tired..every day run up n down..take shoe..hazel n waiteng jus started work..bet tt their legs are totally sore..we're havin a branded sale now..10 brands going on sale..until the 31st..killer..the setup was a killer..stayed in taka till close to 1am..den the next day branded sales ah..i work morn shift..nearly killed me..totally moodless tat day..i get to see dearest everyday..so it aint too bad..dearest never fails to cheer me up after a day of work..thankful for him..went for gb todaay..hmm..long time nv gather with my girls ler..den we go makan..so funn..den went home with hazel n mich..saw my dearest on the way..I GAVE HIM A KISS..hehes..ohhh so fun..n i had sch food for lunch..so satisfying..totally..i'd be workin full shift on sunday..so..yeah..totally tiring..

][ i ran my finger tips through ur body ][

2007-01-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

ok back after a very long time..bin workin my backside off..till i fell n hit my tail bone n like..got a stiff neck..hope i get my pay soon..den i can go shop before the taka sales ends..yeah so happy..
today..worked rotelli..stupid..the aunties at scholl n ecco complain bout us..say we grp n tok..only get me betula otafuku hush puppies 2 geox clarks n 1 ecco kor kor lah..ok lah. quite big grp lah..budden today oso no body..so kuku..wan us stand there tok to our shoe meh..sold 1 pair today..well..nt too bad..for a day like tat..sighs..so sians..but OH YEAH! i'm nt workin tmr..hahas..so dead happy..den i get to spend time with my dearest..i miss spendin time with my friends too..drey mich..daddy..everyone lah..u noe hu u are..nid a good rest..bodys achin like no one's business..rain..again..

][ let us stop time hand in hand ][

2006-12-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

work work work..yes..i am dead tired..dead shagged..sales hasnt been good cuz the shoes tat i'm sellin are priced at 199 to 239..who would buy them besides they are all comfort shoes for workin ppl..yawns..rain rain rain..rain n rain..like no one's business liddat..makes my mood go cranky..so irrtating..zhu came for dinner today..at least i had company..if nt so sians..everytime eat alone so kuku..i dun like..i hate to eat alone..budden..no choice..nice to have company for meals..dead shagged..yawnnnsss..kae lah..i go call my dearest liao..bye peeps..

][ there were moments of gold ][

christmas

2006-12-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

seems like everything's alomost a mess now..well..learnt my lesson..nv to leave my fone with my other promoters..well..its his choice now..cant say nuts bout it.
anyways..christmas was a smashin event..i mean i was workin on christmas eve..so anyways yeah after work..i had to squeeze through the crowd..but darnt the police were doin crowd control..changed it to one way traffic..so dearest had to squeeze through the crowd to look for me..darn it was bad..went to heeren lvl 2 wat..balcony ah..or something liddat go drink..well killer..drank till i almost went mad..den headed to clarke quay to hooters to have food and more drinks..the night was a little cold..n gloomy..well..lets leave it to time..i've got nth to hide..

][ i finished cryin in the instant tat u've left ][

2006-12-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

draggin my legs to work as usual..pants soaked by the rain..headed to office..there was a queue tot it was for breakfast.but no! it was for the lift! circuit tripped yeah got stuck down staris for bout 20 mins plus..yeah hell yeah it was hot ok..the whole buildin was stuck there..yeah all office ppl stuck there..like so kuku liddat den playin ard in the office oso..shall upload some pictures for u guys to see..yeah anyways..den out of office pants soaked again..den it dried in the train..den on the way to work..it got soaked again.. punched in exactly at 2.45. didnt go for dinner cuz customer lah..take shoe take shoe..but boss bought me puffs n.ya jus a puff..so nice of him..hmm..sold $1095 worth of shoes today..big accompishment u noe..besides tat i was slackin with my grp..timberland,hush puppies,geox..yeah all slackin ard..nice ppl the whole buncha em..waited for timberland to finsh before punchin out..at 10.47..yeah..den dearest came to pick me up!! so nice of him even though it was rain cats n dogs..oh no one can beat my love..muack i love ya loads dearest..

][ i love u truely madly deeply][

2006-12-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

workin at taka is no joke..clothes all black..serve with a smile..no sittin drinkin eating..yeah..beat tat man..my 4 hrs of sitting n makiin calls off setting my 8 hrs of standing..2hrs of standin for 1 hour of sitting..how great is tat..everyday's 10 to bout 10.30..darn tiring..but at least my dearest is willing to pick me up frm work..but it's a lttle far though..seems bit troublesome for him..but even so..jus so gladd to see him on sunday..he makes me go gaga..oh i love him to bits..well, anyways..yeah..workin hard so i can pay for his gift..soo..up..i will n must get his gift..well i saw it already n its reserved be MOI!! but gotta pay up pay up sooon..
spendin lesser n lesser time with him now.. sighs..scared tat we might drift..everyday half an hour..wish i could spend more time with him..but i was bein a smart ass..2 jobs..sigh i'm sorry my love..jus bear with it for awhile more ok.. i love u very very much.thanx for being a dear n pickin me up..oh i love u so so much..
agm today..saw my company again..n i wore nco n mufti...likie how long was tat ago when i was in tatt attire but agm didnt really concern us..so..yeah..nth much..ok ima go now..wanna talk to my love

][ the touch of ur lips makes me smile no matter how bad i mood i am in ][

s.h.a.g.g.g.g.e.d.

2006-12-14T17:55:00.000+08:00

ok back peeps..was a much better day today..at least i've gt more ppl intersted in our loans..yeah went for another interview today..taka ladies shoe department..well..the brand i'll be workin for has all shoes above 120 bucks..yeah..well..if i can cope with the mess of havin two jobs..den i will..yupp..i will..so i can go shoppin..n get my beloved all gifts..n of cuz for my dearest...yupp..now..really really shagged out..burnin up with a fever..bur still gotta work tmr..yupp..aint gotta choice..well..hmm..dun have no idea y i keep knockin myself into a daze..nt really in a good mood dis few days..maybe cuz shagged out or smth liddat..yupp..weather's screwed up too..i miss my boy..alot..

][ cheers to the luck we've got ][

2006-12-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

" hi good afternoon..i'm calling from oracle capital..can i speak to ur business ower or could u put me to the finance department."
" no, not interested.. no capital..dont need ur service.."
ah screw it man..back's aching after a whole day's job..tired..sleepy..everything..singaporeans are nt exactly friendly..n they sure say the dumbest things ok..it kinda gets on my nerves..but with the company of my 2 girlfriends..it was a blast..
dearest was so nice to come pick me up aft work today..oh i love him to bits..MUACK!! i love ya..
kae i'ma kinda tired now..

][ aint no other man..can stand up next to u ][

2006-12-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

3 days..hmm..love spendin tym with him..went for 2 job interviews today..hopin tat they will return the call.. if nt..might consider nt lookin for a job..darn sick of it..cheesecakes n strawberry cakes..hahas..bread n fries..bin tat way for 3 days..dunno y gettin kinda used to it..

CHILDHOOD NOSTALGIA

][ shadows n relfections ][

2006-12-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

oh now..hocus pocus.. i'm happy today!

yeah..y? cuz i've managed to spend almost a whole day at dearest's house..without freakin out but rather enjoyin myself..hahas..his oh so cute little brother..hahas.. my dar aint too bad..except tat he was tastin blood half the time..n had some problem eatin porridge..yeah..went all the way to havelock rd to get tat box of porridge..his wound was sewn to his cheek..like AHMAGAWWWD..absolutely disgusting in my pointa view..yeah..absolutely..

hmm i'm gettin kinda sick n tired of goin for interviews aft interviews...havin tat same old sentence said in ur face..we'll call u again..like wadda crap..i dun wanna work..but i aint gota choice..my mama n papa aint givin me cash to survive on..so..dork..i've gotta work..like how great is tat?
i just woke up to blog..yawn..might wanna go back to bed..but..nah..dun wan..cant sleep no more..

][ have u ever been alone in a crowded room ][

2006-12-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

more pics upon request..

][ glamourous indie rock n roll ][

2006-12-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

so tell me.. how have u bin feelin? holidays are driving me mad..seriously..but..its exceptional today..cuz for one, i gt to see my dearest n next..we've gotta new pair of ring!yeah ca-may's happy today..really happy..have no idea y..
hmm..oh no..my dearest is goin for a 1 day surgery tmr..dammit..y? oh Y? y cant he not go?oh tell me y?
lunch was great today..simply great..yeah kae ima go chill now..

hmm..dunno y but seems tat i'm gettin tat kinda feelin again..tat feeling of unrest..ah..ok wadda crap..its jus me being paranoid

oh ya!! hahas.. me dearest wt.n drey were lunchin out at NEW YORK TODAY..portion was a killer..but dear waiteng..hahas..after NEW YORK..its gonna be dinner..
like wahaha!! wat do u get when u add mac n hine together? go as audrey for the answer..freakin hilarious..i laughed till i nearly went into a state of spasm..hehes..OH AUDREY..hahas..

][ till death do us part ][

4th month..just bliss..

2006-12-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

ok after venting my anger..

this is going out to U dearest my love..

4 months ler..happy being with me?hahas.. dont have to answer me..but ask urself okae..boy am i glad tat i've got u

sorry for being alittle rude just now..hope u understand..i promise u the next time we get to meet will be after ur op on the 7th at ur place ok.well.if there are changes den it'll be otherwise den..

4 months aint too long..i'm still wishin n hopin tat it goes far..yeah..far..really really far..

I LOVE YA LOADS..

yours,
ca-may
o4/12/o6..

2006-12-04T14:35:00.000+08:00

last nite before bed..i told myself it's gonna be a pretty darn fine day tmr(o4/12/o6)..i smiled n teared at the same time..thinkin bout things..with my leg hurting..i soon fell asleep at 5..
jus glad tat 4 months went by so quickly..without much complications..without much quarrels..jus with loadsa love..just the way i wan things to be like..
anyways i woke up feelin glad..budden..i slumbered back to sleep feelin moody..well moodless actually..knowing tat yet again..i would not be able to spend this month's anniversary with him..i woke up with a blurred vision havin a thought tat he jus rang the doorbell..but..nah..it was the newspaper man..i crawled out of bed..sank into the sofa..continuing with my moodless stonning..wonderin to myself if the next month would be better..the 4th of jan happens to be a thursday..if we're working..i have my doubts tat we would be able to spend tat day together..but i'll keep my fingers crossed..
boredom's creepin up to me slowly..waiting for his call..growin restless..feeling drained of all my emotions..leg still hurting n pus-ing by itself.. amagad..i started to tear again..tat was the last thing i needed..dunno wat the crap has gotten into me..all the restlessness n tearing has got me all confused n crapped up..am i being selfish n petty or maybe jus over reacting? or am i jus..jus too emotional like how every girl would be like..i guess pretty much maybe its jus me..somehow my heart feels numb..i have no idea y..perhaps due to my boredom n my restlessness tat started all this crap..wouldnt do tat normally..but..hell yeah i blew it this time..screw the world man jus fuck it..
ok right now..i'm feelin darn outa place..currently at mich's house..all the phua sisters with their dearrie,darling and dar dar..n i'm left outside alone..sitting in the sofa staring blankly at the com n the surroundings..blasting music into my ears to stop my mind from going to thoughts i dun wanna have..
OH SCREW THE WORLD N FUCK IT BIG TIME..
please pardon my vulgarity..aint feeling me today..peace out peeps..

2006-12-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

HERE ARE SOME GLAM N UN-GLAM MOMENTS..hahas..enjoy
hello all..well..hmm..here are the pictures..if ur seeing this.there's the post after the pictures..muacks!

2006-12-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

HELLOO ALL..hahas..seems tat its been a long time since i last blogged..hmm anyways..yeah..grad nite was great..totally splendid..dearest was looking good..so did my class guys..my gb girls n my class girls..hahas..ok..tat day was hectic..totally..but i shall give it a miss n fast forward it to bout 6 plus..yeah we were running late..practically dashin about in our heels..yeah..i can still run ok..only fact tat my bra dropped each time i ran..totally sickening..yeah when we all decided to head down to the ball room..RTC's lifts were foolin us ok..totally.we were lost in the building n the lifts..cuz we had no idea how or where the ballroom was..looks like with 9 ppl..technology was still smarter den us..hahas..ok darn..its makin me feel stupid..yeah anyways..hahas..great fun great laughs..all lookin fly..pictures were taken at every moment..the activities were nonsense ..yeah seriously..they were..enjoyed the company of everyone..the prom king n queen thing..the best couple thing..yeah..all crap..hahas..den on the dance floor.jus when i so wanted to go..the dear DJ changed the music..upbeated it..den nah..nvm..my bra woulda dropped if i went..
soon,it was goodbye..goodbyes were said..hugs exchanged..we stumbled upon some who we've long forgottened..pictures were taken again..a few of us went back to the suit reluctantly as we wanted to be with our loved ones for a little while..but knowin us girls..a little while would mean..i dunno how long more..dearest..u should now how long is awhile more..hehes..
anyways..back in our suit..9 of us..bouncing ard..jacuzzi,suana..amagad..how do i even spell em..yeah wadda heck.we went in..droppin fake nails,pao..yeah..hahas..great fun..more pictures were taken..
den dearest called.boy was i glad tat he was gonna drop by..i missed him loads though we parted only like 2 or 3 hours ago..well..i cant help it..den came jerome..i had my fun takin pictures with my dearest..holdin his hand..huggin him..walkin through RTC..with him..sittin my by the pool..i mean how often do i get to do tat? i let my dearest go reluctantly at 3.45 leaving him with a kiss on his lips..
back to the room..i saw wai teng n hazel soakin their legs in the jacuzzi..i joined them..n my dear michelle..she made her cup noodles..n laid on the bed..i told her nt to fall asleep as i went to wash my hands..when i came back..she was soundly asleep..me hazel n wai teng played wildly through the night..till 7 plus..tain pictures again..n again..playin with chips..n tat statue..hahas..oh killer..yeah..the next day..breakfast was up in our room..food was great a caught a flu..hmm..we parted on our bus ride..oh i miss em all!!

the next yeah,,guess wat..i fell down while walkin..got a gastric while watching happy feet..had to go for a jab cuz of gastric pain..n i vomited..the whole nite long..yeah right now..i'm missing my dearest..it will be a special day tmr..oh i cant wait..

some pics are ard my blog..dun wanna blast em all at u..so happy searchin for urs..i'll post some more..

][ i love u with all of my heart ][

2006-11-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

helloz all!! chalet was fun..esp when i had my dearest there with me to hug n to sleep on..yeah! dearest i love u loads.hmm...anyways,..the days aft ther chalet were totaly chaos ok..everyday go out shop shop shop...shop n shopp shop shopp..yeah..so busy ryts?
hahas..yeah anyways...waiteng,drey.mich,odi n haz came to my house to get their nails done today..hahas..it was a killer..hazel's nails are nice..i like..wai teng der oso..so sweet looking..hahas..kinda cant wait for tmr..lookin forward to seeing my friends...rather den the grad nite events itself..
i wan to see my dearest..my girlfriends..druus..khim hee..my class guys..xiao dii..all tat..yeah..oh i cant wait! think my dearest is gonna be the best looking!! yeah!! oh i adore him..so much so much!! hahas..cant wait to spend time with my girls..i'm gonna miss them all so much..yeah..i hope n pray tat everything goes fine tmr..DEAREST I LURBB EUUS WORRS!!

][ when darkness turns to light ][

2006-11-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

yeah..so not used to being so darn carefree..seriously..hahas..well,went out with dearest,audrey,hazel,mich,sweeting ans jerome today..watched step up with audrey dearest n hazel..cool movie..cool moves..n..yeah seriously..i miss dancing..totally..hmm..den walked ard..n ard..den back at bishan..like crap..so boring..seriously..boring..hmm..right now..i'm dead bored..seriously bored..i need to find my source of entertainment..soon..but this week's gonna be jammed packed..with a whole load of dun..like ohhh yippieee! chalet..hmm..cool..darnnit..gotta go job hunting soon..but tat would mean the end of my free time..n tat would mean sacrficing time for my dearest..tat doesnt sound to nice..does it? dammit.. ok tata peeps..

][ seeing u out the corner of my eye.leaning on the wall,looking fly -tats u my dearest ][

2006-11-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

IT'S OVER!!! finally..after a long long while..freedom has jus came knockin on my door..
but i have no idea y..i'm feeling a little down..will a little become more? will more become..even more? i dun noe..i really dun noe..he seems different..troubled..sians..but he aint telling me a thing..tats wat hurts most..i can hear it frm his voice..i can see it..his actions..i dun wanna go through tat sorta crap again..i dun wanna cry again..i dun wan anything of tat sort to happen.. each time i look at him..it jus feels tat his mind is somewhere else..somewhere..distant from me..i dun wanna say it..but i have to..dearest my love..i dun wanna hide my thoughts..if u dun wanna tell me what happened..at least..dun sound so glum..u seem gloomier..dun keep tellin me it aint nth..i can feel i can tell..aint someone u can jus run ur feelings by..
all i can do..is to wait..for the better..i love u..ur my everything..i need u..please dun do this to me..

][ i'm standing, been waiting, i'm yearning, i'm burning ][

2006-11-19T18:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday~

met up with my girls..yeah it was ms amy's big day.. all of the girls were dressed up pretty pretty..everyone of them..yeah..went to town to walk ard..den aft tat..met up went to the church.. oh man..my class guys..charming..totally..bernie,khairol,vinod,chester,kenneth,darren..yeah..the girls..oh pretty pretty..cai ling, denise,, my girls! hazel, tiff, wai teng,valencia,jia yan, brina,audrey,swee ting,odelia,mich..all looking hot..totally..those killer dresses,skirts,boots,shirts,heels..hahas..all fantabulous..

lookin at all of them..realized tat they've all changed..looking prettier..more lady like,hot..gorgeous.. 4 years n above..memories we hold..all flashed back as i looked at all of them..closer bonds stronger ties..getting to noe each other better..fallin out from the grp..joining the others..all these things are factors holdin us strong now..coming to think of it..they each hold a special position in my life..each representing strength,untiy n everything else tat makes us 1 batch of girls.. each of them are show stoppers ..making ppl wanna have a second look.third look.. when they walk down the streets..i love them all dearly..some pics ard..show casing the girls with their killer smiles

][ all of u are dear to me ][

2006-11-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

PPL FROM 4 TRUTH N 4 PEACE ARE HAPPILY REJOICING cuz its the end of their Os.. but nt for us..hahas..but WHO CARES??!! hahas.. i dont! i went to to shop shop walk walk..n have fun today..with my dearest of cuz..andrey,hazel,mich n jun ping..yeah..so fun..very long nv liddat go out ler..so fun!!hahas..love u peeps ok!!to the max!
yeah den dinner was great..n a baby bullied me..seriously..i'm so sad..as audrey..hahas.dessert was great..haha..mango pudding!
yeah..den the walk home was long..scary..but thank god i had dearest m audrey with me..oh i love them both..
DEAREST I LOVE U!!

][ u're the best thing tat happened to me ][

screwed

2006-11-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

oh mg god..poa was a killer..it killed me..yeah it sure did..darn..ok 2 more frightful days..OH BRING IT ON..i'm nt afraid of u..hehes..but poa mcq n science msq..and history..and and and DNT!! oh tat mr chua..den it will be FREEEDUUURRMMMMM! whooohooo~ ok nt good...goin crazy..cuz i'm dead tired..yawns..jus came back from my grandma's house..buzy playin with the baby jus now..so cutesss wor..she learn to play saliva liao..hehes.. dearest i love u..n i miss u..

][ its really good to hear ur voice saying my name it sounds so sweet ][

2006-11-15T09:39:00.000+08:00

POA..its crap..seriously..its crap..hate poa..budden..still gotta sit for it..like wadda crap..sians..darn..i miss my dearest..kae i go study ler..tata

][ its all bout you ][

2006-11-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

been at home for 2 days..yupp..without goin out...yeah how great is tat..totally great..dead bored..bored stiff..stiff as a..log?or maybe brina..hehes..oh shh..hahas.didnt say anything..
POA HISTORY DNT..3 more papers..sigh..dead..feelin so dead so lost..so..vexed..so screwed up..i'm scared..dearest..i need u now..sigh..
life sucks..esp if ur in a dilema..is this how u spell it? oh man..this kills..aft the 20th i'll be as free as a bird..oh yippe..

][ come rock with me ][

2006-11-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

rained..hmm so cold..walked to n fro to get hazel..hmm..den walked to sch..socks gt soaking wet..den the exam hall was so cold..my toes..turned numb..brrr..den aft the paper..went j8..walked ard den went toa payoh with my dearest to get my lenses..hmm..yeah..den went novena to meet my mum..to eat..bad bad..nt good..havin a headache now..
its gonna be over soon! today marks the day..yeap..left the minor papers..oooo..i'm so darn freaking happy..yeah den i can spend all day n all nite long with my dearest.. i love u loads my love..

][ if i wrote u a love note n make u smile at every word i wrote.what would u do ][

2006-11-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

today.hmm..tuition all the way..but before tat..i went j8..to walk with hazel n mich..wanted to buy contacts..but dunno yet..hazel finally bught her violet..why-io-let.. hmm den had tuition den went to meet my dearest..oh miss him loads..so nice to hold his hand..so warm..den the weather so cold some more..brrr..den went for tuition again..now i'm back home..yeap..tired..mentally..headache..pain pain..shoulders are aching..aching aching..dunnob y..
Lord, i pray tat u give me confidence for my maths paper tmr..let me nt screw it up..Father be with my love,my gb girls,michael,bear,darren,xiao di,dru..Lord with those i always pray for Lord..give them a clear mind to think..send ur guardian angels down to be each of them..Lord..bless my relationship..bring us closer..keep us together in ur mighty hands Lord..
i ask all this in ur most holy n precious name.. Amen.
dearest..i love u

][ if only i could hold ur hand n nv let go ][

2006-11-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'm mentally exhauted..yes i am..seriously..cant seem to absorb any more things..poa..maths..sigh..everything..yeap..the CPE..she's crap..i hate her..every morning..she yells at us for no reason..jus hate her..hmm..kae..nth much ler.. i jus miss my dearest..alot

][ to u i will stay faithful ][

2006-11-07T17:04:00.000+08:00

day was tupid..went to sch for only an hour plus..yeah den headed straight home n slept all the way till like 3 plus 4..dead tired..was studying last night.. studying is mentally exhausive..its seriously a pain in the butt...
chen today was ok..but wrote somethings..like wrongly.. feeling bit kuku now..talkin to my dearest too..hahas..miss him loads ok..totally..want him over now..like now..want to be in his arms..

][ would u be my love ][

2006-11-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

THE Os ARE HERE..yes..we had our first paper today..the ss paper mighta killed some ppl..cuz out of like 12 or 11 chapters..only 3 will be tested..imagine the shock on their face when they saw the structured essay..i was rushin through cuz i didnt have enuff time.it also means bad hand writing..n it means tat the marker might not be able to read my hand writing..oh is tat bad?
anyways..yeah got chem tmr..well guess its down to the last min studyin again..yeah..hope it helps..even if nt much but at least some.. yeah i guess ima go rest den start sstudying..
are we distancing? does this feelin spell trouble..well..perhaps its the Os..n we seldom meet up..but after the Os,i get to spend all the time in the world with u..guess i'm just paranoid..it felt good..n better when u held me in ur arms today..dearest if ure reading this..i jus wanna tell u tat i love ya loads..alot alot alot..yupp..i really do..i'm sorry if the post might make u ponder..but honestly..i think its jus the Os causing this..we'll go through this yeah..jia you my love..final few meters ler..
n peeps out there..keep going..keep pushin urself..its gonna be over soon..

][ that long silent walk ][

2006-11-04T12:19:00.000+08:00

this post.. is all tat i remember..

i still remember

the first time i held ur hand..
the first time u held me tight in ur arms..
the first time u said u love me..
the first time our lips met..

i still remember

the first time i got angry with u..
the first time i shed a tear for u..
the first time u thought u were gonna lose me..
the first time we got into trouble..

i wont forget

the way u always look at me..
the way u gave me pecks on the cheek..
the way i feel each time u hold me in ur arms..
tat shoulder tat i love to lean on..
the warm hugs tat i always get..
the comforting voice i get to hear everynight..
the love we share..

Dearest my love..thank you for being there for me..for being understanding..for ur comforting words with tat dash of sarcasm at times..thanks for bringing a smile to me always..
i love you loads..from the bottom of my heart..

love,
ca-may

][ i really really do ][

dearest my love

2006-11-04T12:18:00.000+08:00

2006-11-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

omg..i cant believe myself..i actually went for tuition 6 tims this whole week nt includin tmr..like kill me..i've been seein aunty rose everyday this week..its a killer totally..out practically the whole day today..hmm..supposed to meet hazel like asap aft the called me..but it started raining cats n dogs..so i was 25 min late..sry hazel..i called a cab jus for her..now i'm almost broke..yeah 7.20 ok..yeah den went for tuition..gt stuck at a question for like 50 mins ok..mind boggling..yeah den headed for sch..since mich couldnt meet us...yeah struggled with physics den did ss..saw the girls havin drill..den i tot bout my batch of drill com girls..missed the times man..totally..yeah how time flies..in like 3 more days n i'll be sitting for my first paper..yeah..anyways..their drill were sorta like a killer too..left me speechless..but will pray for them like i told ke hui..hmm..yeah messed up the hentak kaki on the march..rusty ler..long time nv do drill liao..they dun really seem interested in drill..maybe tats y so sloppy bah..
kae den aft tat we decided to head for j8 as in me n haz..slacked ard..went popular to read books.hahas..yeah..bored..dead bored n mentally exhausted..den walked ard saw some clothes..finally met mich..
i went to buy bacardi for hazel..cuz she wanted to drink but dare nt buy..dunno how to spell ah..or izzit bercadi..ah..wat ever it wass..walked to the counter..she asked if i was 18 already..didnt feel like answerin her..so jus put my left hand somewhere she could see..yeah so she didnt carry on askin..hahas..den headed for mich's house talked bout grad nite..n everything..hahas..really interestin n its totally exciting me..totally..yeah went for tuition late..cuz jo was bathing den we slaced awhile..den haz didnt go but i went for an hour or so..valencia described her gown to us..think its gonna be retro glam bah..shouldnt be a prb for her since she can carry the retro glam style..hahas tuition was a joke today man.with jo n mich as ping n pong..hahas..killer..kae think ima call my dearest soon..

][ drive me to an overdrive ][

2006-11-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

being kicked out of my house today..cuz there was construction goin on everywhere..road construction on the left..construction on the right near the pool..n renovation upstairs..like wadda crap..the noise was killing me so i had to leave the house..yeah n i eventually did..darn..the day's kinda bored..n dearest was being a total pain in the butt..seriously..he n his evil doings..sigh..tsk tsk tsk..kids nowadays ah..hmm..
still considering if i should go for tuition everyday of this week..aunty rose said tat i dun have to go tmr if i dun wan to..but my maths..its seriously worrying lah..so should i go for tution? should i? or should i not? den friday n saturday how? sigh..today rain rain rain..so cold..brrrr..

][ furtive glances dont mean a thing ][

2006-10-31T12:25:00.000+08:00

OMg!! the Os are like coming..n like wat the crap..i think i'm dying..hahas..ok dunno wats wrong with me..hmm..KILLER OK..i've gt maths tution almost everyday this week..like wadda crap is this man? its killing me..seriously..ok feeling darn bored now.nth much to do..so sians..cant stop sneezing again..oh n i love my dearest loads ok..hahas..i mean yeah i do..hahas..kaes tata..goin to study soon..
oh waitttt...did i tell u bout the Os..stupid CPE was like shit ok..i mean totally crap yelled at us for some shit ass reasons..feel like rippin her apart..totally..spoiled the day totally..the paper..wasss..ok paper 1 section 1 nearly killed me..paper 2 was ok..yupp..i bout a week's time..its do or die..totally..den it will be play till we all drop time..WOOHOO~

omg

2006-10-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

goin crazzyyy!! studying my ass off..n i cant seem to rmb wat i studied..omg..sigh..such a cold cold day today..

WILL SOMEONE BRING ME OUT PLEASE? I THINK I'LL GO CRAZY IF I DUN TAKE A BREATHER.. is this annoying..hehes..ok dead bored..gonna call my dearest soon..darn.. feel like..rockin the house down..

][ aint no other guy can stand up next to u ][

insane

2006-10-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

ok peeps.. if u were to see 3 girls standing in front of a vending machine..n trying to bang a packof mamee priced at 40 cents out of the machine..wat will u think of them?
hahas..ok me cai ling n wai teng did tat yesterday in a canteen full of BB boys..we were trying to ease our tension..tats y..dun think too much ya..but i bet ya it sure looked dead stupid ok..we ended up conquering technolongy..hahas..guess wat..we put 40 cents in n out came 2 packs of mamee!! yeah n..we said YES! darn loudly...totally looked n sound like a bunch of kukus lors..hahas..omg.. first paper's ard the corner..yeah.killer..chinese on monday den in a weeks time..its do or die man..the final final last lap..n it will be partaeee time..oh yippee..den i will be able to spend more time with my dearest n catch up with suraj n carmen..
oh dearest..if u're reading this..jus wanna tell u i cant wait to be able to spend hell loads of time with u..den we'll go shoppin..ring shoppin..hehes..*eye sparkles* oh i miss my dearest loads..
jus came back frm swimming..have no idea y i'm having a splitting headache now..aint too good..might just faint anytime..

][ be my guardian angel ][

arghhhh!!

2006-10-27T10:28:00.000+08:00

mornin peeps..sigh..studying is seriously a pain in the butt man..totally..if i continue studying..think ima rrriiipp my books n stomach apart..each time i study i get gastric..sians..aint a thing i can do bout my gastric..its reoccuring..n its killing me..haze is gone..but dun have the urge to go swim or anything..feeling lazy..somehow..well..no one's at home again..its getting kinda bored..dun wan to study liao...ARRGGHHHH!! *yawns* sigh..feel like goin back to sleep..zzzzZzz..lazy me..the bed's calling me..*lai lai lai..* omg think i'm going crazy..nah!! shall resist temptation..
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oh crap..i'm going back to sleep..too sians..too pigg liao

][ i wonder wat does my future hold ][

rain

2006-10-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

rain rain rain..such a gloomy n cold day..yeah cold..kept getting goosebumps thanx to LIM TENG KIAT..dearest..if u're readin this..i will take revenge ok..mark my words..i will get back at u..yeah today went to sch..kinda miss fooling ard in sch..slacking ard..but sch's lookin kinda screwed up now..doesnt even seem like sch..everyone is partying away n i've gotta study..sigh.. how great can tat get...den took a cab down to my grandma's place..dearest was being a little whiny today..hahas but doesnt matter..so cute..he's jus like a small kid...played with the baby today.hahas..she so notti..but still..so darn cute..hahas..omg i dunno wat the hell i'm talking bout man..jus nt feeling right..sorta having a headache..yeah..
i miss my dearest.. alot..alot..alot..alot..

][ i'd gladly wish my life away ][

i love u

2006-10-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

DEAREST...JUST WANNA TELL U TAT I LOVE YA LOADS..i really do..hahas..u're jus the sweetest thing..really..small actions like getting pecks on the cheek from u..they mean a whole lot to me..warms me up..love snuggling in ur arms..yupp..just like today..MUACK!

the day's bad..except for the fact tat my dearest was with me..throat hurts a hell lot..back pain.. i cant seem to hear myself cuz my ears ar all blocked up..n i noe i sound funny..totally..sexy voice..hahas..so cool..u all oughta be jealous cuz i've gt a sexy voice n u dont..hahas..beat tat man..oh changed my blog song..like this song..dunno y..although the lyrics dun apply to me..cuz i'm happy n nt hurt to have my dearest..he's jus such a sweetheart..i love him

Christina Aguilera - Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

2006-10-23T11:04:00.000+08:00

woke up..n no one's at home..so sians..so kuku liddat wonder ard the whole house..fever's still there..my voice is kinda sexy..jus call me if u wanna hear my voice..its rocks ok..yeah..throat itchy ah..but nth i can eat..den so sians ah!!! i miss my dearest alot.. but i thin he's gonna drag me to the doc..i think..but i only see handsome doctors..ok..so seeing my dearest is good enuff..i think he's handsome..yeah..*hands up those who agree* last night was a killer..was tossing n turning ard..jus cant get to sleep eventually fell asleep at 3.15..yeah..chest still hurts..think i'm gonna lose my voice..totally..hmm kae nth much ler..headache's killing me again..n i still feel like vomiting..but ther's nth to vomit out u see..

][Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high][

sick!

2006-10-22T22:19:00.000+08:00

ppl..ca-may has fallen ill aft a long time..gt a fever of temp. 37.7 now..how cool is tat..fever is frying my brains..gonna get a permanent brain damage soon..head's throbbing..dammit..headache..flu..fever..cough..sore throat how great is tat? i've gt everything u dun wanna ask for at this period of time..
worst thing is..i cant get to sleep..jus vomited..yes vomited..feelin kinda queasy now..vomit cough n sneeze until my chest pain..cant breathe!!
oh yes there i go again..complaining my ass away..but really torturous ah..cant stand the feeling..feel like fainting..can someone cast a fainting spell on me? please?? its gonna help alot..ok or maybe jus get my dearest here..now..NOW!!NOW!! i'm missing him loads..yeah loads ppl..get it right! LOADS..o the fever is fryin my brian..cant seem to think right..having a funny temper now..
DEAREST,IF U'RE READIN DIS..I MISS YA LOADS..

][ forever be my holiday ][

<3

2006-10-20T12:12:00.000+08:00

ITS GOTTA BE COPPER (II)CHLORIDE!! i think..hehes..oh the prac is over..finally..the invigilators look funny..hahas..den so kuku some more..i do the chem practical until my thumb turn blue..full of solution A..kinda dozed off while doin the practical..oh such a pig..den had to go to the auditorium to be prisoners fo 4 god damn hrs..yeah screw tat man..nearly killed my little butt..watched the show GOAL! yeah..quite nice to watch..its jus the way life goes..den aft tat went to eat ban mian..egg yolk grossed everyone out..hahas..aint got no choice mates..ccant eat yolk liddat..den wa! aft tat very sians..practically wasted my time away..got my ass back in sch to study.. den went for tuition..heard our stomachs rumble away while having tuition..all starving..came home..gt nth to eat so..never eat lor
oh man..having a bad sore throat n flu now..seriously nt feeling tat well..no voice..n my throat darn hurts..was talking to my dearest last night..my dearest so cute leh..hahs.like the way he talks..so darn freaaakin proud to have u as my boyfriend.. when we go out..u make wanna have a second look at u..when i'm holding ur hand n i notice them..jus makes me feel proud..cuz i get to have u n hold ur hand..hahas..is this feeling normal?
giving in is normal ok..jus as long as ur happy..i'd do anything for u..anything,i promise..talking bout future plans jus makes me love u more..makes me wanna hold on more tightly..Dearest,dont ever leave me will u?

][ constantly boy ur on my mind ][

bored stiff

2006-10-18T12:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday was one day i really enjoyed..was able to spend some quality time together with my dearest aft a long while..he's so precious to me..like it when his warm hands hold me..tat sense of security even though no one else is ard..yes,ca-may loves ppl to hold her tightly..aniwaes..yeah studied for about 6 hours for the whole day yesterday quite an accomplishment..i'm such a good girl..hmm had a fever bout 8 plus ystd..doesnt seem to be subsiding..kinda pissing me off cuz i'm feeling cold when its supposed to be hot n stuffy.fevers bout 37.7..its stilll here..having a stuffed up nose too budden sneezing away at the same time..omg..its killing me..must be the haze..TUPID TUPID HAZE!
omg! its the science practical tmr..jus rmbed it..like wadda crap...dammit..wat unearthly hour do i have to reach sch..wat unearthly hour do i have to wake up?! if my dearest is reading dis..bet ya he's gonna say tat i'm such a pig..but i cant help it mah..jus like to sleep..jus wanna sleep..can someone jus pluck my nose away n get me a new one..its kinda suffocating me..
ystd tok to my dearest on the fone until bout 4.40..hahas..so fun leh..really love him alot..got out of bed at 12 today...lazing ard as usual..shoulders aching..thighs aching too..cant rmb wat i did ystd to get this kinda aches..oh daarn..missing my dearest now..wanna kiss him..now! feeling demanding hehes..kaes i gonna rest,today will be another day where ca-may is gonna stay at home..so guai..
dearest my love..was thinking bout wat we talked bout yesterday..i hope forever is possible..seriously..really enjoy the times spent with u.. <3>

][ another summer day has come n gone again ][

yet another hazy day

2006-10-17T11:01:00.001+08:00

oh great i typed a bloody long post previously den the com jus shut down by itself..now i've gotta retype it..thanks a bunch u tupid com..ok..its killing me..the boredom n the haze is killing me..slap me someone..i've been doin silly things at home cuz the boredom is really killing me slowly..the haze is such a turn off..when ever i look out of the balcony wanting to go for a swim..the haze jus spoils everything..feeling bit whiny now..later meetin mich n audrey to study..but i wanna see my dearest first!!yeah i miss him a whole lot..bin 3 days since i last saw himkae i cant rmb wat i typed in the previous post so i shall just leave it..bet u its all a whole load of whining n such..u noe..the typical sorta post..kae adios!..

][ echos of ur voice keeps resonating in my head ][

yet another hazy day

2006-10-17T11:01:00.000+08:00

be happy!

2006-10-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

wednesday marked the day..our last official day in sch..sat as a class one last time during ms amy's period..feels sad having to nt be able to sit as a class,listening to their lame jokes,disturbing teachers n watching the guys pick on each other out of no reason..darn..think i'm gonna miss the class real badly..
aniwaes..oh yeah!! ca-may gt her ring! hehes..yes,me n my dearest got our rings finally n we bought a bracelet each..hahas..spent a bomb tat day..hahas..after wearing the rings..we both felt tat it was loose..y huh..budden when we were in the shop trying.it was ok lehs..hmm..kae hahas..jus so happy to have him as my dearest..n people love my dearest lots nt cuz of the constant showers of gifts ok..but i really love him alot alot..cant u tell?sounds sarcastic..
kae..feelin bored..kinda miss everyone now..miss goofin ard..givin ppl sarcastic remarks n everthing..life is all but studying n studying..more studying..study until u sians still need to study..like wadda crap..wake up study study liao go slack slack liao go study bathe den study again den before u sleep..still need to study..life sucks when the Os are coming..but aint too bad once the Os are over..

][ i want u,i need u,ilove u! ][

it's all in the mind

2006-10-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

as usual day was a little sucky..day totally didnt start ryts..tony yelled the hell out of our batch today excluding the sec 5s..yeah killer..den da day went on and on and on..was having cramps bad cramps..den gerard went down to get milo for me cuz i needed something hot..n a sandwich..but william n gerard ate the ham n cai ling ate the bread..hahas..nvm..was really in the right state of mind to eat..very pain ah the cramps were illing me well,it still is..so sians leh spoils the whole day..hmm.had a talk with ms siu..long time nv tok to her ler..hmm..well yeah was bout sch n things..and everything such..before tuition had a long talk with mich..seems like her greatest wish is to have our 10 ppl united as one..she save her one wish for us..tats really nice of her..i'm hopin tat time will heal all wounds n everything would be like as before eventhough it may not be very possible..but well..shall keep certain ppl n certain things in prayer..
gerard if ur reading this..jus really so sorry bout hiding tat thing frm u kaes..thanx for being such a dear to help me get the milo n the sandwich today even though u n william ended up gobbling the ham..thanx alot alot! whee~

][ wat would a world be without friends ][

in the face

2006-10-04T17:12:00.000+08:00

nearly late today..but had 30 seconds..n i made it..class as usual dead boring..so sians so slack..but i did my work ok..but keep getting distracted..nth much to blog bout today so i shall fast forward to after sch..oh killer..waited for chester to eat in sch..den dragged our sorry selves to wai teng's block..yes..as usual the goofing ard the nonsensical talkings n the bashful behaviour..well it's everyday life now..hmm..ok..chester my xiao dii decided to walk behind me..we were all sitting under the block n yeah like BEHIND ME! trying to balance himself on tat little surface area n i mean little ok..tiny incy wincy..yes..he lost his balance in order nt to fall forward he leaned backwards..he grabbed my shoulder n i initially tot he was talkin to me..BUT NO!when i turned,i saw his shoe! he kicked my ear n my face den my shoulder..wanted to grab his leg but he fell n while falling..he stepped on my hand..sigh..can u imagine?! can u imagine how ca-may got stepped n kicked by chester..sigh..think he fell quite hard on his back..wonder if he's ok..hmm ya cuz i forgot to ask him if he was ok..sorry chester..den everyone was laughing n i didnt noe if i was tearing or laughing..maybe i was laughing too hard tat i ended up tearing..tat stinging sensation n the ringing sound in my ear was a killer n its coming back..think my ear is a little bruised according to my dearest..the pain comes on suddenly..yes it was a hard kick to my ear..
today,o4/1o/o6..is the second month anniversary for us..me n my dearest..my love,my boy..dearest,i love u lots n i mean it..i love u very very very very much..i thank u for bringing such joy n laughter into my life..i thank u for every moment n everyday spent with me..thanx for the patience cuz i noe i may be a pain in the butt at times with my sarcasm..i treasure every moment spent with u n i hope..we can n will go on like dis till..u noe..yeah till the end of time..ok tats well i hope..but till as long as we can..I LOVE U!!

][ ca-may thanks God for him n every moment spent with him ][

2006-10-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey..i'm back again..stupid keyboard..tat K cannot press..irritating...kkkkkkkkKKKK..ah..seems to be working now..hmm..today another day wasted in sch..so darn freaking boring..p.e wAS a killer..so tiring..n wei hong..omg..so hard to dance with..for one,he's very tall n me n tiff aint tat tall..for two,he bit slow ah..need to drag him n run..so tiring..den now my body aching all over..dunno y ah..especially my shoulders..seems so stiff..oh sigh..bored..bored..really bored..staring at the screen..waiting for singapore to snow..hmm the first 2 periods of dnt passed so slowly..felt so sleepy den..but the last two periods were..insane..seriously..hahas..full of crap..n tat kenneth zeng..trying to act cute..tsk tsk tsk..kids nowadays ah..dunno how to act their age..hehes..darn..this is going no where..hmm..missing someone..alot..kaes..shall go be a piggy liao..toOdles ppl!

][ yearning for u..ur lips and ur touch ][

ROARRRR!

2006-10-02T21:19:00.001+08:00

wahhh! how boring can the day get?tell me! tell me! tell me!! well nvm,8 more days n ima get my ass out of sch..and shall only return to take the Olevels..muahahas..ok yes i noe it sounds stupid..cant help it anyways..the boredom of going to sch and to face those lifeless teachers is just killing me..imagine having to go through the agony of tat..wont it kill u too? oh sigh..yes i realize its me lamenting bout sch again and again..but i cant help it..
well today nearly killed me..had to move ard with a blister exactly at the bending point of my foot..how great is tat..ya..stayed in class without having to move ard..feels absolutely funny..so dead n lifeless in class..practically disturbing waiteng throughout the day..hmm..den DIPAK THREW THE DUSTER AT ME..so i decided to ignore him..though i didnt wan to..but cant be helped..of all things it has to be tat stupid duster and it landed on my white uniform..thanx ah dipak..jus rotted my day away in sch..thinking of my dearest..wishing he was beside me n not out of sch enjoying himself while i'm here in sch..wat a life he leads..interesting ryts..guys like him live life by the edge..waiting to get into trouble only but i have my conditions..i let him out of sch but he has to be back when i end sch..fair enuff..
guess mr chua's gonna hit the roof anytime this week..wanted to pon the last period but he found us in the canteen..den the lecturing session..bout listening..sometimes jus wanna pluck him apart n put him in exploded view.. after sch was energy consuming..made a big fuss cuz we didnt wanna eat but have to..all on budget ah..totally out of cash man..sigh..nvm..its only for this month thanx to the alternating days of birthdays ah..how coincidental..anyways..the end of sch was eneergy draining..so tired..den leg pain..but enjoyed the company..william,cai ling,michael,dearest..yeah den saw zhi hao..hahas..so kuku leh he..hahas..omg..think i'm going nuts..wat i'm saying doesnt make sense anymore cuz CA-MAY IS TIRED LIAO..yeah i really am..think ima be a piggy soon..but my dearest thinks i'm already one..so evil..but i still love him..I LOVE EUU WORRS!! hehes..

][ thanx for showering me with ur love ][

moving on

2006-09-30T16:08:00.000+08:00

things have changed since i met u..well..yeah bin a long time since i last blogged..honestly..prefer life now..but still..miss my old life..nth will be able to bring me back in time no more..well..yeah prelim results killed me..totally did..kinda disappointed with it..but there's no one else to blame but me myself..yupp..screwed up shit man..O LEVELS..seems like yesterday tat i told hazel tat there's still a long way to go..we're only sec 1 but look at how time flies..we are already near the end of 2006..soon it will be the Os den its GRADNITE!! yeah..but still,Os comes first..better get it done and over with..
life now is all bout studying studying and ya more studying..blast those tupid books man..driving me up the darn wall..dead tired..physically and mentally..like hell yeah man..did chem,mole concept nearly busted my brains..mole here mole there..sigh..
wat a boring day today..rain rain rain..so cold..kinda seems like i'm having a grudge against everything..but heck it..jus feel tat way now..hahas..u shall pardon me if ur reading dis..
i need to shop shop shop..i wanna shop shop shop..but lazy to go out ah..sighs..yes i noe..i'm a lazy bum..who doesnt noe tat? been spending quite alot recently..yeah..clothes shoes bag..this tat this tat..broke ler..poor me..ROARRRRRRR!! darn,i'm feeling bored..kaes..shant torture u anymore..think anyone reading dis may jus slam the laptop shut if i continue..hehes

][ oh crystal ball crystal ball, mirror mirror on the wall ][

' unreasonable '

2006-05-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

long time since i last blogged..many things happened recently..many i say..but..well..complications n misunderstanding also arising..tensions going up too..sigh..things are screwed up..so bloody screwed..chinese Os oso coming up very very soon lers..but dunno y dunch have the feeling of..of tat O level stress or chinese yet..but saw my holiday schedule..packed like hell..sigh..only free on the last week..free as in no need go sch..but i guess i still will be back in sch..doing my dnt coursework..so sad..ca-may's holiday is burnt..like totally..sigh..feelin so fucked up now..oso dunno y both of us quarrelling cuz of th both of them..so darn irritating..hais..fucked up shit..i shall stop here den..
pardon me if my blog's kinda messed up ya..will do something bout it when i have the time..

][ i stopped ur heart from beating ][

jus another obstacle tat God has set for me

2006-04-18T17:49:00.000+08:00

feeling much better today..nth much seems to be bothering me aft learning tat it takes well lets say 4 darn years for me to see wat sorta ppl they really are n how fast they can change within tat time frame..hahas..found it stupid anyways..nvm..ppl will outgrow their childishness little by little..but its true tat ppl do have their childish sides of life..i'm sure everyone has..well.wat really matters is how they look at things n if they wanna shut themselves outa it or not..it works jus like tat..simple eh..but well..easier said den done..anyways..life's nt perfect n life's unfair..lets wait n see den..well..not hopin for anything bad..jus wanna wait n see..hahas..learnt tat humans can be absolute saddists at times..they can be the neutralizers n those who choose to shut themselves out n think tat they should n oughta be right..i dun have to play along if i dont wan to..

][ i am who i am..nt hu u want me to be ][

somedays i jus wanna quit to be normal for abit

2006-04-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

hii all..dis 3 days..well..nt really tat bad..hahas here goes..
- FRIDAY-
mich came over to study..den suddenly so many ppl at my place..my aunts..3 cousins,grandma,bro n gf..ya everything..den we study in da room..den ya until everyone left..drank VODKA(absolute mandarin) yeah! den slept awhile..until at nite..we watch bangkok haunted..oh ya..she stayed over..eh..watch wid her can die u noe..she pull my shirt until it came off my shoulder..den cook noodles for us..ya watch until we cannot take it..den go slp ler..talked bout many things too..hahas.
-SATURDAY-
woke up wid her mum calling,..den we went shoppin wid jess,me,jo,mich n the other mich..from centrepoint to plaza sing. den ya went church..suppose to have tuition at 4.3o budden cannot rush back in time...so went for BB enrolment..hahas CONGRATS TO ALL PROMOTED! den took pic with my pigg..den yuan feng or how ever u spell his name..ya n all those.will upload when i have the time..hmm..ya den very fun..felt the joy of our batch again..me wai teng odi jo n mich were there tat day..ya den ok..was supposed to have tuition at 6 cus push back..den aunty rose haven come back..so they slept at 8 plus..den i slept i dunno wat time..was having a bad cold..ya den liddt..hmm
-$UNDAY-
was so cold tat i came out to sleep on the rocking chair..breakfast den off to church..todays sermon wasnt so bad.,.it was bout forgivness..yupp..we shld all learn tat..den me mich jo ms tay n bernice wen to town..makan..hahas interesting time dere..ya den wen to take neoprint with them..met my boy..den go far east walk..den go isetan den taka..so fun..finally gt the feeling back..even though it was a mere few hours..den chiong back for tuition..n now i'm home..bout to fall asleep..yawn..
I LOVE U MY BOY<3

][ forgive n u will be forgiven ][

living it day by day

2006-04-12T16:49:00.000+08:00

hay all..back to blog..well..nth much really..jus darn sleepy darn bored..darn screwed up..and everything such..hahas..i shan't lament on things anymore since its an apparent waste of time..well..sigh..come to think of it..ok gtg

][ loving u ][

euphoria or am i jus deciving myself?

2006-04-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

hais..things in sch arent getting any better..feeling so left out in anyway i could possibly feel..i mean its seriously gettin obvious..sigh..but wat can i do..its all against one..really hurtin to see tat after bout 3 years plus or longer of friendship and companionship it all ends up dis way...

come to the father
though ur gift is small
broken hearts,broken lives
he will take them all
the power of his word
the power of his blood
everything was done
so u would come

hais..can someone please let me know wat i have done to get dis..am i gonna be kept in the dark for as long as forever?sigh..common test's around the corner..am i gonna push myself to the breaking point dis time round?will any of my friends be there to support me,be my silent supporter..well at dis point of time..i think not..i think it will be jus down to me,myself and i together with God..
spent a few nights pondering bout life..bout the meaning of life..did God make me stray away from my friends or make my friends stray away from me for a purpose?to add to the misery of sch life..if they are ppl i dont noe..its fine with me..but the ones i'm distancing big time from are ppl whom i have known for years..ppl i call friends..ppl i can trust..i can talk to..i can luff with and ppl who wont leave me at one corner of the room..but now..nth is going the right way..i dont wanna lament on dis thing much longer..but..but..hais..nvm..anyways..sch sucked big time today as usual..tupid ms chng and her changing parade..den all tat tupid things..sat putside during english to do my reflection cuz didnt wanna go in n me an eyesore to them n if my presence is nt wanted..so i stayed outside..yeah..nt really feeling well dis few days..perhaps due to the lack of sleep..but nvm..hu cares..sigh alryts..gtg

][ in the shadows cast on devotion- my silent suffocation ][

its still a fact tat its tat way..

2006-04-10T17:12:00.000+08:00

sigh..fucked up life and all tat shit..all tat fucking shit..dunno wadda hell's the world coming to? tell me..someone please tell me..sigh..i dunno wadda hell's going on too..sigh..dunno y dis few days is jus like shit..everything is nt going the way its supposed to be..hais..first its sch..next its dis den its tat..when will it ever stop! i'm going crazy soon..seriously..hais..dunch even noe hu i can trurt anymore..dunch even noe who i can talk to anymore..dunch even noe if things will go the right way if i do it tat particular way..dunch even noe y i'm still takin the pain to be treated tat way..i dunch even noe wat i did to get this..i seriously dont..hais..sigh..nvm..i'm not really in the mood to blog anymore..

][ pain is inflicted silently ][

S.C.H.O.O.L.

2006-01-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

sigh..sch so far's hectic man..hoom room system..tupid lah..quite slack oso..budden soon,it will be slack no more..sad ah..den yesterday wore full u whole day cuz gt cca orientation..can dis ah..so hot some more..budden..still ok lah..today dunno whether i wanna go sch anot..need to do ushering..aiya i dunno lah..oh ya..gt my locker liao..at least its nt right at the bottom..phew..odelia gt tat..sian ah!! sec 4 liao..so fast..old already..haiya..kaes.i gtg liao..

heya

2005-12-17T20:51:00.000+08:00

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